Hello. I’m Ella. I started this site as a way to openly blog about my experiences living with anxiety and post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD).

You see, I’ve never really felt like I fit in. Something greater than me encouraged me to choose a career serving others, working overseas in international development. Consider it a calling, consider it a passion, or perhaps, just a job.

Regardless, I left my home and spent ten years abroad, having new experiences, meeting incredible people, and riding a roller coaster of emotions. I bring these back with me, in search of roots, of home, of permanence. I carry with me a wound from things I’ve seen, stories people have shared, and moments I’ve witnessed. I’ll never forget them.

These emotions manifest inside of me in so many ways – love, courage, happiness, satisfaction, gratitude. Yet at the same time, I experience daily anxiety, depression and sadness. It’s almost like my soul is splintered, between the bubble of privilege I am raised in, and the reality of the millions of people living in dire circumstances in order to facilitate our wealth. I’m not sure how to reconcile these two realities. They have shaken me to my core, unearthed my roots.

And so, I search for new soil.

I am finding home.